I'm Slowly learning To Love Myself
I haven’t posted anything in about of month, I’ve had a lot of thinking to do and its been a crazy month for me all in all, just when I thought everything was fine and dandy. Just like life likes to do to me all the time, It all fell apart. I’ve learned throughout my life of having an extreme case of bad luck and overall just being a fucking idiot, that life is full of ups and...
Today I took a xanax before I went to in school suspension today, i didn’t end up doing any work for my classes 2 days in a row. Not because I was lazy, but I had a weird feeling. All i could think about was how fucked up my life was, with nothing but silence around me.. I didn’t have much to think about at all but how sad I am. I don’t mess with pharmaceuticals a lot, But...
Day by day
I feel a little depressed every time I think farther into the future, It makes me think where I am in life at this point. I don’t know if what I’m doing is wrong, but there’s always a voice telling me its wrong. Having such thoughts in my head makes me think twice, sometimes three times about what I am doing. In the end its always the same response to the voice, “Fuck...
"What's It like to die Alone"
It’s Hard walking around with these distorted eyes. Everywhere I go, I feel as if people can just take a quick look at me and know something is wrong with me. There’s not something wrong with me at all.. Everything is wrong with me, I’m lost. I always have been, I don’t know where I am going, what purpose I have for anything at all, or how I even got this far. I am a...